Monday, September 04, 2006
Relativity.
Just sitting and letting your thoughts run free. Amazing what you can come up with. At this point i'm still surrounded with uncertainty. Did i use to be this way? Unsure about so many things. Maybe i just didn't put so much thought into it before. I remember sleepless nights before SPM. That constant cloud above me that just feels so heavy.
Trust is something that takes a long time to build. One wrong move and it's gone. Shattered like shards of a broken mirror. You can try to put it back together but it will never be the same again. The only thing you can do is to build it back again slowly. Piece by piece. But sometimes you just wanna say to heck with it. Buy a new freaking mirror. Put it all behind you and start anew.
That's what i really feel like doing. I can't wait to go to U.S. and start something fresh. I know it's not as great as i make it out to be. But, by being here i feel like i'm stagnating. i'm sure you know what i mean. It's that feeling that you're in a transition period of your life. Everyday is going by just because time says so. Classes are finishing one by one, people are flowing by and time is ticking. Amidst all the chaos, i'm standing there. Jostled by the crowd only because i have no direction of my own.
I need to find where i need to be.
travelled through my head at 12:20 AM